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One year
Tomorrow is one year. In the Jewish tradition they have a ceremony on the one year anniversary of a loved one’s death. I am not Jewish but there seems to be some merit in their practice. Perhaps I will try something to honor his memory tomorrow. I don’t know what that would look like though. […]
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It’s almost a year…
January 15, 2013
(disclaimer…this is really raw and in a week it may no longer be relevant) It’s almost a year now since Papaw passed away. It’s still fresh in my mind…too fresh. The attitude of others regarding his belongings is still ticking* me off. I still wish he was here. I still don’t know where the heck* […]
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Living alone…
May 29, 2012
I remember living alone. I remember liking it. I remember wanting to live alone again. Now I don’t remember how to do it.
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Full Circle
February 23, 2012
Well, we’ve come full circle now with this blog. One of my first entries was about having armrests on my toilet. Today I uninstalled the armrests and a few other bonuses because Papaw’s case worker from the council on aging is coming by tomorrow to pick them up. I think I am going to keep […]
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Too quiet
February 17, 2012
Tonight was the first night that the house felt empty without Poppy. I sat in his chair, which is the most comfortable in the house, and read. The house was very quiet. It was the first night I didn’t have constant noise from the TV or radio. Too quiet.
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I hate funerals!
February 9, 2012
(I wrote this almost a year ago. I was angry, very angry, when I wrote it. I had it private forever because I didn’t want to offend anyone. But now that it’s a year later I find that the thought of my Papaw dying is still fresh in my mind. Maybe I am going through […]
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What now?
February 2, 2012
Papaw is with Grammy and Jesus. Six years ago when Grammy died, Papaw asked, ‘what am I supposed to do now?” Now I’m asking the same question.
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It’s weird…
January 25, 2012
…during life it’s all about the medicine, what to take to get better and maintain health. At the end of life it’s all about the relational and spiritual. You’d imagine that a doctor or nurse would tell you the scientific reason why your loved one is still alive when the projected time frame has come […]
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Stoic at present – losing a grandfather, a roommate, and a purpose
January 21, 2012
Poppy is in hospice care and they say he is not much longer for this world. When he is gone…I will have lost a grandfather, a roommate, and a purpose. For the last five years it has been my purpose to care for him. For the last 8 or 9 months it has been my […]
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Sometimes…
December 29, 2011
Sometimes, I’m so tired I just feel like crying.
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The Papaw Effect 
January 30, 2013
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